"Are you afraid?" I didn't know the power that these three small words had to make me come unraveled. As I sat on the edge of our bed, my whole body shook as tears rolled down my cheeks and soaked into the fabric of my sweater. Just the night before, a text message from someone I love deeply, lit up my phone with the words, "Don't be afraid."
It took the intentionality and care of those I am closest to for me to realize that, yes, I am very afraid. A season of life that should be full of hope and rejoicing has been held captive by an enemy that would love nothing more than to paralyze me and keep me from walking forward in faith.
So I've determined to wrestle with these fears, to call them out by name and to put them in their proper light so that I may find freedom.
I am afraid of losing the ones I love deeply. I am afraid of sickness, because it seems to lurk around every corner. I fear authentic friendship-- being deeply known by others but also of losing it because I am "too much". I am afraid of my mother. I am afraid of not being the mother my own children desperately need. I am afraid that God won't show up when I need Him to most. I am afraid of the future, of the unknown. I am afraid that I may get to the end life and not like the person I was all of my years.
With Summer winding down and a new year of MOPS about to start, I can't help but think of all of the mommas who will walk through the doors of our church, nearly crippled by fear. Afraid to leave their babies and afraid of the new and unfamiliar faces. Each of us bring our own weighted bag of fears as we begin this new year together. This morning I want to challenge us as a group of united daughters of the King.
What are YOU afraid of this morning, sweet Momma? What fears can we call out TOGETHER this year to set YOU free from captivity? Write them down on scrap paper, in the margins of your Bible or even on a clean diaper if that's the closest thing you have in this moment. Hey, we're all mommas ;). Bring your called out fears with you on your first day of MOPS.
Together, we are going to join hands in unity. We will proclaim freedom from the captivity of our fears. We will not be slaves to them any longer. We will resolve to not stand paralyzed any longer but to walk forward in HOPE. It is through the release of fear and the emergence from captivity that we see our TRUEST most authentic selves for the women God designed us to be.
The Spirit of the Lord has anointed us and THIS year, we are going to discover together, how to be free indeed. Will you join us, Mommas?